Today was an awesome day! Calming and peaceful.

The boys went golfing early and this girl got up and drank coffee and read a book. Did that until about noon and then headed out for a walk. I did the 2 miles but didn’t worry about the time because sunshine, sunshine and ran into a friend. Does it get any better than that? Me thinks no.

While on my walk, I had some good and happy thoughts. I also had some sad thoughts as I contemplated the year anniversary of mom passing. It was very weird and calming to think about being sad while the sun was shining. I focused on the calming that, surprisingly, washed over me. It was and is hard to describe. I’m definitely babbling, but that’s the best I can do.

Was this the calm before the storm? I could go down the emotional trauma path and prepare for the storm. Or I can expect the storm IS coming but not be afraid of it. Have strength knowing that I am strong enough to face it. That seems like the better path. When storms come, the gray can wash over us. But after the storm, the sky is clearer. Brighter. Happier. Not much different than grief right? We do tend to look like the sky in that way.