I’ve started and deleted this post 5 times in the past week. I’m not going to lie, this week has been a tough one for me. Some stuff I’m going to write about but some of it, I’m just not ready. Which is funny, because this was suppose to be for me, but I’m now worried that if I write some other stuff, some people will read it and judge. The struggle has been should I or shouldn’t I? After a lot of deliberation, I’m going to just be me and get it out FOR ME. But it will be in spurts, like more of an abundance, over the next few days–at random times. To quote Shrek, “Better out than in!”

Business discussion first. This past week has had days where I haven’t walked–and I’m referring the date of my last post. There have also been days where I’ve walked almost 5x. The good and the bad. I haven’t been consistent, haven’t been writing and this wasn’t something I was expecting. I’m learning I have a lot of triggers and I also need to document the shit out of them to learn from them. When I have my bout of spurts, I will document most everyday on what I did and didn’t do, walking wise.

I can say this, that tomorrow, I start the forcing myself to get up at 6 and WALK. This is a must. I need to force a routine. Due to this last week or so, I haven’t had any consistency and it has wreaked havoc on my mental health. Like the MH game has gone to absolute shit. I’m on the path of getting back on the winning side of the game. Don’t worry, I know it isn’t a GAME, but I’m calling that cause anyone can win a game if they put in enough effort. So for now I say, GAME ON MOTHERF**Kers!!